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180 Movie

I recently watched 180. I submitted my thoughts to them after watching. You may or may not get something out of it, but if you do watch it, I'd recommend reading my thoughts afterwards, hoping to not sway your views.

Anyways, here's what I sent:

My narrow synopsis of the film is as follows:

First four minutes: People are stupid.

Thirteen minutes plus: Pro life propaganda.

Twenty minutes plus: Christian propaganda

Some very good arguments put in a plain, honest way. For both sides, really. Very straight forward and fairly honest. I was a Christian until 18 or so. 19 now. I moved away after finding how narrow Christianity made me and the people around me. I've never been more hurt by some of the most looked up to Christians. My goal was to Christian-ize the world, never love anyone with my own heart.

I know that you can interpret the Bible so many ways. You could have gone much further with those arguments and make people confess to anything, paralleling with Hitler-class stigma. The thing is, I gave up everything for Christianity. Lost friends and moved many times, giving up everything I had. I was still focused on God, even if in the wrong direction. I never felt content.

Now, I have more scientific and deeper questions about God and Christianity. However, I still really want to believe it because my parents do, and I have for a long time. I was missing something then, and I'm still missing something now. Maybe I'm dumb to be focused on life as it is now, but I only see a handful of Christians happy and content, and living like people I'd like to follow. I just want to be happy and do things in my life for others, giving something of my own heart. I think that Jesus would give anything of himself for someone else, no matter what the outcome. I'd like to be like him. If I die in hell because I don't believe the semantics of Jesus, God, and the Bible, then maybe that's best. I'd just rather live here and love, and find happiness in it all. I'd rather die happy than live forever, praying for people instead of laying down my own life for them. Hitler, adulterers, abortionists. They should be loved. I don't know why they should, or why I should. But I believe Jesus does, even though I'm not sure if he's real. I should do the same.

I don't know if abortion is technically killing or not. It's certainly not right to say that a baby is not worth surviving if he/she has to go through a certain undesirable life. On the other hand, you can't really say that a family who would otherwise abort would be a great family. And really, I think it may be the mother's right. Maybe it is murder, but who am I to control her baby? Do I slap her on the wrist when she yells at her child? Do I shun her when she's immoral in front of her own child, saying it's fine? I know that life is obviously in the child's best interest, but a mother still has her rights. Some mothers who abort are traumatized, others are perfectly fine. I don't know what to make of it, but can't find anything 100% conclusive. I don't think there is a single right answer.

I'm not saying to just let people die. I don't know if it's like that or not. It just seems like, even if they are murderers, we should focus more on loving them and giving them enough of ourselves that they're in the right place where they need to be. I don't think it is right, but nor are so many things that I do. I'm not perfect and I try to get better, but I am human. We're all human and there is something beautiful about imperfection.

Anyways, thanks for the video. I got something out of it. I don't know what.

Sincerely, Teran