As I get older my mistakes in life have only accumulated. I don't really know what I'm qualified for. If you look through my life through certain lenses I'm quite a terrible person.
I've hurt numerous people, sometimes in deep ways. I'm often wrong and yet I write as if I am not. And in so many ways I am a hypocrite.
Perhaps much of this just being human but I would like to be a better person. I feel guilty for what I've done.
I'm incredibly blessed to have the friends and opportunities that I do. But my life is not perfect. I don't know if I will ever be a person to look up to, if you see the whole picture.
I am ambitious but I don't really know what I'm doing. I am always working on something and just making it incomplete. I work despite being underqualified in almost everything I do.
Today I was reminded about how I hurt someone about a year ago. I wish that I could take back the things that I've done and the people that I've led astray.
But no matter what, my life will always be full of the mistakes I've made.